Free

Thank you for coming today :) It has been a while since I last met u. Now, I feel lifted and free. Not that I'm holding on to you. But still, its still nice to have you around. You made my day brighter than ever.

Thank you :)

Cheer up :)

I wasn't feeling quite myself yesterday due to an incident. So before I went home, I played a game with Khaz, Wana, Qida, Nabil and Faizan. We played this game where there are two types of papers. One with 12 numbered questions and one with 12 names of the people you know. Wana did all the questions and the 12 victims are:

-Nabil

-Jazmi

-Faadz

-Ayyub

-Faizan

-Qida

-Nabilah

-Faruq

-Faizah

-Wana

-Khaz

-Iqbal

So~ Lets just move on to the results of the 1st Game.

Faruq : I always have gay dreams of........... Nabil

Khaz : I always sneak into this person's bedroom at night to watch him/her sleep...... Faadz

Qida : This person peed on his/her pants last night...... Jazmi

Nabil : I barfed in this person's bag....... Ayyub

Faruq : I killed this person when I made out with him/her...... Faizan

Khaz : This person and I often go to a gay bar........... Qida

Qida : This person made out with me in the girls toilet for an hour...... Nabilah

Nabil : This person drives a trash truck to school everyday........ Faizah

Faruq : The male version of Pamela Anderson is..... Faruq

Khaz : I had my first kiss with...... Iqbal

Qida : This person is my lap dance partner once......... Khaz

Nabil : This person was once of another gender...... Wana

Hahaha! I always ended up with gay questions :P

Anyway, for the 2nd Game, we used the same names and questions but the questions are jumbled up. Here's the result of the 2nd Game.

Qida : This person peed on his/her pants last night......... Syazni

Khaz : This person was once of another gender........ Faizan

Nabil : The male version of Pamela Anderson is........ Ayyub

Faruq : I often sneak into this person's bedroom at night to watch him/her sleep....... Qida

Qida : I barfed in this person's bag...... Faizah

Khaz : This person made out with me in the girls toilet for an hour...... Nabil

Nabil : I had my first kiss with........ Wana

Faruq : This person and I often go to a gay bar......... Nabilah

Qida : I killed this person when I made out with him/her....... Faruq

Khaz : This person is my lap dance partner once........ Jazmi

Nabil : This person drives a trash truch to school everyday......... Faadz

Faruq : I always have gay dreams of............... Khaz

Hahahaha! Now its all messed up! Well anyway, thats about it. As promised :) I enjoyed the game. Too bad.... I didn't bring a friend to enjoy this game with me. Sorry Kucing. I was pissed off at that time :(

Restaurant City

I am addicted to this game! Been playing it non-stop since last night. Can't get rid of that addiction. I love this fun game :) I hope you guys who are playing this game enjoy it as much as I do :P

The Journey

Do you know how much you mean to me? Do you know till what lenght I'd be willing to go over just to be with you? I bet you don't. Maybe its because I don't show it to you. I acted as if I didn't care about you earlier this year.

The thing is, I care for you as a friend. I really do. You were once that kept me going through my everyday life and sadly you were once the person that made me build that wall just for me to tear it down, breaking my own fragile heart. I hated you once but that hurts me more. I loved you once, but, no answer was given.

Eventhough things did a little rough between us, the "journey" that we went through, you're still my friend.

To Late?

Last night was a wee bit of hell for me. I tried to think things over and I know I was overly sensitive about stuff lately. But, I have my reasons. Should I just accept what other people say about me or what not? Shouldn't I have a say on it. To prove my point to have a say on my behalf?

What should I do? What can I do?

I need to get this over with before its too late.

Tadaaa!

Well~ things got a little messed up inside my head. The little man inside me went crazy so I decided to renew my blog template from that dull gloomy colour, to this whole new bright red template although that floral pattern does look gay. Well, at least this one got the "SPARK" in it. Plus, that splatter pattern makes it extra cool? Haha :P So anyway, I lost one of the gadget on my sidebar and I'll try to retrieve that :) and I noticed that Ayyub's name, Chubs and Fai's and Nafi's name on the top clickable header. I'm not sure how that got up there and I can't find the html code responsible for that. Biar tia eh~ Rugged jua tu :)

So anyway, I promised some of the guys and girls that I'll post the game we played this afternoon. I'll do that later since I am too sleepy to do it right now :P

Tomorrow, I promise :)

Release me.

Some things are just beyond our control and all we can do is embrace it or make a break for it. Someone, in a way, insult me by which at some level, the worst thing that a friend would ever say to me. I am fully aware of the person I am and I don't need to be told about it! I knew it was suppose to be a joke, but, that was a little to far for me to take it. Why should I be the person to always accept such jokes as plain jokes and not an insult to me? Why can't you ever from my point of view and how hurt I was. I know that I am being too sensitive about such things, almost everything for that matter! But, please, just understand the situation that I am currently in right now. I tried not solve or even care about the things in my head but that made me feel numb and somewhat lifeless.

I don't know if you realize this or what not but please, be a friend and not do that to me anymore.

Out of control!

Obviously nothing can cure an addiction other than pure determination and apparently, I DON'T HAVE THAT! Been on Facebook all day. Pissing off every second of my life today wondering how life starts to yada yada yada yada.. BORING~ Yup! Endless boredom!! And what did I do to kill that so called BOREDOM?? This----->>

1. Playing Sims : Castaway on my psp for 6 hours straight!

2. Eating all kinds of junk food.

3. Take care of my lil bro.

4. Mad at my lil bro for throwing my phone 6 feet away.

5. Got hit by my heavy stats book on my head while retrieving the missing panadol under the table.

6. Hit the table while running just to catch a glimpse of the fireworks somewhere around my Kpg.

7. Drown myself in the state of sorrow and pain.

8. Stare blankly into space.

9. Youtube-ing for god knows what!

10. Played Restaurant city on Facebook.

11. Blog hopping.

12. Watch Star Wars: Episodes 4 and 5.

What a day~ all wasted by doing useless things. I know I should do something about it. But, my mind is all messed up today.

I wanna make a wishlist (or something). Since I got nothing else to do :P I'll put it on my sidebar, just for fun :D

Pokok oh Pokok~

I got this lame joke from one of the juniors (Juniors ada yg lame... mostly lame...)

~Bnyk2 pokok, pokok apa yg d takuti?~

~Pokok yg kn TUMBANG~

Hahahahaha! apakan dorg ah!!!!! lame banar~ :P

Burn baby BURN!!!!

My mom told me to get rid of all my form 1,2,3,4 and 5 notes and papers. So this is how she asked me to do it.

Getting rid of my notes is Fun. I feel lifted~ free from all the 5 yrs of education.. Haha! apakan~

Ada plang lagi gmbrnya p malas ku kn link link ani~ ani sjalah~ :D Siuk!!!! Burn!!!! Die!!!!!!

Numb

The feelings hit me again tonight. This is why i hate being alone at home. I don't want to count the days left... but, its... counting itself... and its approaching fast. "The" day is coming and I'm not ready for it.

P.S : I know my post for tonight is vague but it hurts.. thinking about it hurts.

P.S.S : MAYBE i wont be blogging for a while.. need to clear things up in my head and have a lot fun!

Here

Hello people! Au~ batah sudah nda blogging.. c Nabil balik2 tagur ah suruh update :P Just so you know~ i just feel like blogging, bukan upon request org...... Haha! right~ no lah~ karang marah c Nabil. Apakan.. Hahahahaha!

So anyway, I have an announcement to make. I have my own personal TRANSPORTER! :D Happy ku eh :P Baik jua bestfriend ku belesen~ ada jua org hantar aku balik kn~ :P Thanks dood! Aku lanja kau makan nanti :D

I'm counting days... before that one particular day~ I still don't know how to react when that time comes.. My feelings are all numb. My life is all messed up. But, everything seems fine. :D

Aku baru abis liat Armageddon.. Rugged ah.... :'( Sadih ku meliat...... p since movie atu THE BEST! Nda rugi aku sia-siakn malam ku not doing my hw. Hahaha!

Banarnya nda ku tau apakn d post bh ni... bnyk plag draft ni.. p malas ku kn post.. :P

P.S. Nabil, aku nada boyfriend.. n no he's not pregnant! :P ada2 saja bh anak ani.

Hahahahahahaha!