Not here :)

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Last Post here

Wont be posting up anything anymore. Will let you guys know when I have the heart to blog again.

Bye~

Back to NFS

Hey Invisiders - not that I know siapa my invisiders... atu pun kalau ada :P

I changed my template again to my previous template - I'm stating the obvious :P.

I have absolutely nothing to do right now and I am still trying to solve my bad hack problem :( sigh~ Oh well~ I'll try to solve it! I know I can solve it!

BORED as always. Surprisingly, these past few days, the day went on at a fast pace :s I can't keep up with it. I haven't even do the things that I am suppose to do today! Oh no~~~~~~

------------ Thats it! I'll get everything done by tonight :P

Later invisiders :>

Bad Hack!

I tried hacking into a certain website and my first attempt was a SUCCESS. Then, i tried hacking into it again and well.... it was a complete failure.

I tried to fix it but it kept me up for 2 nights and I still haven't found the solution to it.

The software that I used was Cheat Engine 5.5. If theres any of you invisiders know about hacking, please do let me know :) & I'll give you more info about it :P

INVISIDER

Hello INVISEDERS.

I wont be posting much any of these days because its Eid so I don't have time to go online.

But!! I can't help but wondered, siapa yg selalu visit my blog ani kn? :)

Pls leave a comment or post something up in my cbox so that I know siapa invisiders ku. Aight :)

Selamat Hari Raya Everyone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

-.- sleepy -.-

Hello invisider (invisible + reader) - I knowww! how cool is that!! :P

So yea.. I've been online for 31 hours straight and I'm trying to break my own 32 hours record. This is tiring~ but FUN! I've downloaded NFS shift for my psp and played Restaurant city :)

I waited for Hafiz to go online since 7pm last night. I guess he's busy. :'( oh well~

Angpau Raya~~~~~ I'm not looking forward to that :P I don't think I'll get any angpau this year other then from my parents :)

With the money this year, I am planning to buy a keyboard - bukan computer keyboard ehh.. the one that makes sound - I want to learn pinano~~ I have to keep myself occupied and at the same time, learn new skills :)

Bangga ku eh kn kejadian ku ani :')

I guess that is all my ~INVISIDER~ I'm off to my scrapbook at photobucket :P

P.S: Liat bebeh moon tonight :)

Raya!! :)

Hello.... invisible readers :)

It seems that I have visitors eventhough I abandoned my blog for quite a while :'( Satia kamu ani eh :'(

Hari Raya is coming~ and I have 2 new cara melayu and as usual, another red cara melayu this year :) kan betakbir th ku ni malam ani :P

Its best to look forward for Raya every year. Who knows it may be your last plus Bruneians are lucky to celebrate raya without worries. NO FAMINE, LESS POVERTY, NO WARS.. NO any of the bad things that are currently happening in other less fortunate countries. Fikirkn sejenak wahai insan yg beruntung. cewahhhh

Thats it guess~ will be posting up new things / info / news / pictures soon :)

Hello Me!!

Life has been quite okay for me.

It has been a while since I last posted anything here. I just can't find the will to even think about posting my life here. Something someone dragged my attention to start blogging again. I have been thinking of posting something, but failed to ever find the necessity of blogging not that I found it, but life has its own way of doing things.

So yea- it has been a month since my last post. I think it was before my best friend embarks on his journey outside Brunei for scholarship. How I wish I too got the scholarship and leave Brunei with him. There are just a handful of things that I wanted to leave behind. I guess it is too late now. I have to wait till I’m over with my A’levels. I’m still aiming for Neuroscience, but I have my doubts.

It feels lonely when someone you’re close with is not around.

I’m getting tired of this. Let’s call it a night.

Funia!

Today was THE most tiring day ever! I spent my whole day from 8a.m till 5.30pm volunteering to help out at Pasaria Amal at Pusat Ehsan! But it was fun! Jazmi was there, Hanafi, Wana, Khaz, Nabilah.... n more (I can't remeber all the names :(). Oh! Syima was there too! (menyampuk kraja jua.. :P) I love all the activities held there and won a lot of prizes (how exciting!) I won a monkey doll (Hanafi won it for me. Thanks dude! hahaha! gay jua :P) A blue teddy bear (won it for sir Kifri, he paid it for me to play his game where I have to throw rings into bowling pins :P), An egg?? (I won it for...... not being able to put any balls into a large vase :P) A big balloon club (Won it for successfully hitting all the tin cans on the table).

I got a chance to face my fears of Tarantula today. There was an animal exhibition at Pasaria Amal. The animals there are all tame so I got to handle a green long nose snake, I think its the plant snake, then.. Boa (looks like Boa) then a cute chipmunk, a large Iguana, turtle, Scorpion and Tarantula! It was freakin AMAZING!! I'm not that afraid of Tarantulas anymore, but my hand did itch after it crawled on it. :( Then again that was the best experience ever!)

Something happened that ruined my mood, perhaps... not just me. I'm sorry. I felt "the" moment back there :P PMS! Its just one of my mood swings, forgive me kucing :) Hope you're not mad at me. :)

That is all then~ I am so fweakin tired! :) Goodnight everyone!!!!!

Did I?

Did I break the promise that we made the other day? I don't know... actually more like I don't know what to feel right now. I've been like this since Friday, I wanted to let it all out but, you won't let me. I feel all bottled up and I can't hold it anymore. I keep stuffing myself with lots and lots of junk food hoping to ease up the pain.

I need to realize what I'm doing is wrong but, I just couldn't help myself.

Its all messed up right now, my life, my parents.. basically everything. I tried to resolve this but that got me nowhere.

I need you right now, but you wouldn't let me.

Mayday Parade - 3 cheers for 5 years

Lyrics :

I swear that you don't have to go
I thought we could wait for the fireworks
I thought we could wait for the snow
To wash over Georgia and kill the hurt
I thought I could live in your arms
And spend every moment I had with you
Stay up all night with the stars
Confess all the faith that I had in you
I had in you

To late, I'm sure
and lonely
another night, another dream wasted on you
Just be here now
against me
You know the words so sing along for me baby

For heaven's sake I know you're sorry
But you won't stop crying
This anniversary may never be the same
Inside I hope you know I'm dying
With my heart beside me
In shattered pieces that may never be replaced
And if I died right now you'd never be the same

I thought with a month of apart
Together would find us an opening
And moonlight would provide the spark
And that I would stumble across the key
Or break down the door to your heart
Forever could see us not you and me
And you'd help me out of the dark
And I'd give my heart as an offering
an offering
To late, I'm sure
and lonely
another night, another dream wasted on you
Just be here now
against me
You know the words, so sing along for me baby

For heaven's sake I know you're sorry
But you won't stop crying
This anniversary may never be the same
Inside I hope you know I'm dying
With my heart beside me
In shattered pieces that may never be replaced
And if I died right now you'd never be the same

And I will always remember you as, you are right now to me
And I will always remember you now, remember you now

So sleep alone tonight with no one here just by your side
Sleep alone tonight
How does he feel, how does he kiss
(let's sleep alone tonight with no one here just by your side)
How does he taste while he's on your lips
(let's sleep alone tonight with no one here just by your side)
How does he feel, how does he kiss
(Repeats in background:let's sleep alone tonight with no one here just by your side)
I can't forget you
I know you want me to want you I want to
But I can't forget you
So when this is over don't blow your composure baby
I can't forget you
I know you want me to want you I want to
But I can't forget you
So when this is over don't blow your composure baby
I can't forgive you
I know you want me to want you I want to

Sleep alone tonight

Its 3am in the morning and I can't sleep. I kept on listening to 3 cheers for 5 years since Faadz told me about it. The lyrics of the song got into because, I'm in that situation. I can't stand feeling this anymore.

I will always remember you now.

Free

Thank you for coming today :) It has been a while since I last met u. Now, I feel lifted and free. Not that I'm holding on to you. But still, its still nice to have you around. You made my day brighter than ever.

Thank you :)

Cheer up :)

I wasn't feeling quite myself yesterday due to an incident. So before I went home, I played a game with Khaz, Wana, Qida, Nabil and Faizan. We played this game where there are two types of papers. One with 12 numbered questions and one with 12 names of the people you know. Wana did all the questions and the 12 victims are:

-Nabil

-Jazmi

-Faadz

-Ayyub

-Faizan

-Qida

-Nabilah

-Faruq

-Faizah

-Wana

-Khaz

-Iqbal

So~ Lets just move on to the results of the 1st Game.

Faruq : I always have gay dreams of........... Nabil

Khaz : I always sneak into this person's bedroom at night to watch him/her sleep...... Faadz

Qida : This person peed on his/her pants last night...... Jazmi

Nabil : I barfed in this person's bag....... Ayyub

Faruq : I killed this person when I made out with him/her...... Faizan

Khaz : This person and I often go to a gay bar........... Qida

Qida : This person made out with me in the girls toilet for an hour...... Nabilah

Nabil : This person drives a trash truck to school everyday........ Faizah

Faruq : The male version of Pamela Anderson is..... Faruq

Khaz : I had my first kiss with...... Iqbal

Qida : This person is my lap dance partner once......... Khaz

Nabil : This person was once of another gender...... Wana

Hahaha! I always ended up with gay questions :P

Anyway, for the 2nd Game, we used the same names and questions but the questions are jumbled up. Here's the result of the 2nd Game.

Qida : This person peed on his/her pants last night......... Syazni

Khaz : This person was once of another gender........ Faizan

Nabil : The male version of Pamela Anderson is........ Ayyub

Faruq : I often sneak into this person's bedroom at night to watch him/her sleep....... Qida

Qida : I barfed in this person's bag...... Faizah

Khaz : This person made out with me in the girls toilet for an hour...... Nabil

Nabil : I had my first kiss with........ Wana

Faruq : This person and I often go to a gay bar......... Nabilah

Qida : I killed this person when I made out with him/her....... Faruq

Khaz : This person is my lap dance partner once........ Jazmi

Nabil : This person drives a trash truch to school everyday......... Faadz

Faruq : I always have gay dreams of............... Khaz

Hahahaha! Now its all messed up! Well anyway, thats about it. As promised :) I enjoyed the game. Too bad.... I didn't bring a friend to enjoy this game with me. Sorry Kucing. I was pissed off at that time :(

Restaurant City

I am addicted to this game! Been playing it non-stop since last night. Can't get rid of that addiction. I love this fun game :) I hope you guys who are playing this game enjoy it as much as I do :P

The Journey

Do you know how much you mean to me? Do you know till what lenght I'd be willing to go over just to be with you? I bet you don't. Maybe its because I don't show it to you. I acted as if I didn't care about you earlier this year.

The thing is, I care for you as a friend. I really do. You were once that kept me going through my everyday life and sadly you were once the person that made me build that wall just for me to tear it down, breaking my own fragile heart. I hated you once but that hurts me more. I loved you once, but, no answer was given.

Eventhough things did a little rough between us, the "journey" that we went through, you're still my friend.

To Late?

Last night was a wee bit of hell for me. I tried to think things over and I know I was overly sensitive about stuff lately. But, I have my reasons. Should I just accept what other people say about me or what not? Shouldn't I have a say on it. To prove my point to have a say on my behalf?

What should I do? What can I do?

I need to get this over with before its too late.

Tadaaa!

Well~ things got a little messed up inside my head. The little man inside me went crazy so I decided to renew my blog template from that dull gloomy colour, to this whole new bright red template although that floral pattern does look gay. Well, at least this one got the "SPARK" in it. Plus, that splatter pattern makes it extra cool? Haha :P So anyway, I lost one of the gadget on my sidebar and I'll try to retrieve that :) and I noticed that Ayyub's name, Chubs and Fai's and Nafi's name on the top clickable header. I'm not sure how that got up there and I can't find the html code responsible for that. Biar tia eh~ Rugged jua tu :)

So anyway, I promised some of the guys and girls that I'll post the game we played this afternoon. I'll do that later since I am too sleepy to do it right now :P

Tomorrow, I promise :)

Release me.

Some things are just beyond our control and all we can do is embrace it or make a break for it. Someone, in a way, insult me by which at some level, the worst thing that a friend would ever say to me. I am fully aware of the person I am and I don't need to be told about it! I knew it was suppose to be a joke, but, that was a little to far for me to take it. Why should I be the person to always accept such jokes as plain jokes and not an insult to me? Why can't you ever from my point of view and how hurt I was. I know that I am being too sensitive about such things, almost everything for that matter! But, please, just understand the situation that I am currently in right now. I tried not solve or even care about the things in my head but that made me feel numb and somewhat lifeless.

I don't know if you realize this or what not but please, be a friend and not do that to me anymore.

Out of control!

Obviously nothing can cure an addiction other than pure determination and apparently, I DON'T HAVE THAT! Been on Facebook all day. Pissing off every second of my life today wondering how life starts to yada yada yada yada.. BORING~ Yup! Endless boredom!! And what did I do to kill that so called BOREDOM?? This----->>

1. Playing Sims : Castaway on my psp for 6 hours straight!

2. Eating all kinds of junk food.

3. Take care of my lil bro.

4. Mad at my lil bro for throwing my phone 6 feet away.

5. Got hit by my heavy stats book on my head while retrieving the missing panadol under the table.

6. Hit the table while running just to catch a glimpse of the fireworks somewhere around my Kpg.

7. Drown myself in the state of sorrow and pain.

8. Stare blankly into space.

9. Youtube-ing for god knows what!

10. Played Restaurant city on Facebook.

11. Blog hopping.

12. Watch Star Wars: Episodes 4 and 5.

What a day~ all wasted by doing useless things. I know I should do something about it. But, my mind is all messed up today.

I wanna make a wishlist (or something). Since I got nothing else to do :P I'll put it on my sidebar, just for fun :D

Pokok oh Pokok~

I got this lame joke from one of the juniors (Juniors ada yg lame... mostly lame...)

~Bnyk2 pokok, pokok apa yg d takuti?~

~Pokok yg kn TUMBANG~

Hahahahaha! apakan dorg ah!!!!! lame banar~ :P

Burn baby BURN!!!!

My mom told me to get rid of all my form 1,2,3,4 and 5 notes and papers. So this is how she asked me to do it.

Getting rid of my notes is Fun. I feel lifted~ free from all the 5 yrs of education.. Haha! apakan~

Ada plang lagi gmbrnya p malas ku kn link link ani~ ani sjalah~ :D Siuk!!!! Burn!!!! Die!!!!!!

Numb

The feelings hit me again tonight. This is why i hate being alone at home. I don't want to count the days left... but, its... counting itself... and its approaching fast. "The" day is coming and I'm not ready for it.

P.S : I know my post for tonight is vague but it hurts.. thinking about it hurts.

P.S.S : MAYBE i wont be blogging for a while.. need to clear things up in my head and have a lot fun!

Here

Hello people! Au~ batah sudah nda blogging.. c Nabil balik2 tagur ah suruh update :P Just so you know~ i just feel like blogging, bukan upon request org...... Haha! right~ no lah~ karang marah c Nabil. Apakan.. Hahahahaha!

So anyway, I have an announcement to make. I have my own personal TRANSPORTER! :D Happy ku eh :P Baik jua bestfriend ku belesen~ ada jua org hantar aku balik kn~ :P Thanks dood! Aku lanja kau makan nanti :D

I'm counting days... before that one particular day~ I still don't know how to react when that time comes.. My feelings are all numb. My life is all messed up. But, everything seems fine. :D

Aku baru abis liat Armageddon.. Rugged ah.... :'( Sadih ku meliat...... p since movie atu THE BEST! Nda rugi aku sia-siakn malam ku not doing my hw. Hahaha!

Banarnya nda ku tau apakn d post bh ni... bnyk plag draft ni.. p malas ku kn post.. :P

P.S. Nabil, aku nada boyfriend.. n no he's not pregnant! :P ada2 saja bh anak ani.

Hahahahahahaha!

Tears

Fear and sadness brought me to tears.

Lost

I'm lost.. I couldn't find my way out of this mess.

Video panat!

Okay.. so here's the thing. The commentator was FREAKIN HILARIOUS!! This video is a match between Mexico and Venezuela. Everytime Mexico scored a goal, the commentator would yell "goooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaallllllllllllllllll!" for a full 14 seconds! twice!! hahaha!!! Lama bh tu yo!! Like Nafi said "Enthusiastic banar" Hahaha! mun aku bh~ kapus2 dh nyawa ku tu.. Good one Nafi!

Video recommended by Nafi :P Thanks dude! cali!!

Jobless

Rugged!! bunyinya mcm transformer ah! haha

Heart

I don't know if i can hold it much longer

Drag me to hell

Ani pun aku mau liat!! Freaky ah! sorta.. p. antah.. sal ada Justin Long! hahaha.. sal ia pernah belakon crita accepted so yea~ been waiting for his appearance on other movies ever since :P Siapa tau d mana ku bleh bali video quality yg tarang.. Lemme knw!! ada bejual p berakam dari cinema.. aku nda mau itu mcm~

Tormented

I want to watch this movie! Its a horror movie and I simply love Horror movies!! :P So~ kalau ada siapa2 tau d mana kn bali~~ please~ let me know!! :) Thankiz

Rugged!!

I found it masa ku beruah youtube. Rugged ah!! Lama plang sudah ni :P p nda jua bnyk org tau kali wah! again.. RUGGED!

Malaikat & Iblis

Rugged yo critanya! Like my bestfriend said, ani lagi rugged in terms of kritanya. Haha :P But, yea~ worth watching banar~ nda rugi~ p mesti kuat iman :)

Prototype

I wanna play this!!!!!!!! Let me know if you guys know where I can get this. Kalau bleh, for FREE! :p

Kratos Prime

Optimus Prime reminds me of Kratos from God of War because of his glowing dual sword like on his hands.

Hahaha! Talk about being random! This sort of thing just pops out of my head!!

See the connection!!

What do these superheroes have in common?

Tight outfits?

They believe in justice?

They have super powers or cool technology?

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I come to one conclusion though~

They own the same colour!!

Blue and Red means the colour of heroes? possible :P

Pesta Sukan Remaja 2009

It took me a while to post this because.......... I just remembered about it. Hahaha! That was one heck of performance we did back before the school holidays :P

Kiss

I love you and currently missing you right now.

Avatar : The Last Airbender

This is what I have been waiting for! I just hope this doesn't turn out like Dragonball or Speed Racer because that movie SUCKS!

Can't sleep

It felt awful inside. I don't know.. but, i just can't stop thinking about things. About now, about what will happen. I don't know why I can't stop worrying. I am happy about a couple of things... but the thoughts about tomorrow made me drive myself off the wall. I don't know.. I'm lost. I'm sad to say.. I'm struggling deep inside right now. Especially tonight.. I can't sleep.. Too much in my mind that it hurts my soul.

Transformers : Revenge of the fallen

It was absolutely THE best movie ever! I didn't even touch my drink for 2 and a half hours as the movie progresses. I simply don't want to miss even a bit of that movie! This time, its much more awesome, the soundtracks are much less like Pirates of the Caribbean. All in all, AWESOME!! I watched it with my bestfriend and some friends too :) Love this movie!

Torn up from the inside.

The title says it all. Well.. not literally, but it sure feels that way. I've been feeling like this since yesterday when I watched Angels and Demons with some friends. I know why I've been acting this way but I just don't understand why.

I've been doing a lot of thinking. I have not come to any conclusions yet. I want to forget all those painful memories. But, isn't forgetting something means that you're running away from it? But, how should I face it? I failed it once.. But, i heard this from someone:

"Failing means you are one step closer to success"

That made me lost into deeper thoughts. A lot came up in my mind. The past.. The situation that I'm in right now. The things that I did. The person that I once loved ever so dearly. The memories of a broken heart. I'm at a crossroad trying to figure out which path to take as to where it'll lead me..

Addicted!

I got addicted to Fullmetal Alchemist! not the season on brotherhood. The previous one because i really want to know what happened to them. Anyways~ today, i watched up till the episode where Ed (the older Elric Brother) fight with Mustang (Flame Alchemist). Crazzeh bh critanya! haha.

Addicted!

New Template

Hey guys!

As all of you can see, i changed my template AGAIN! I was bored so i decided Hey! Why not change my template! and i DID! At first i tried the Doraemon template. But, it was too.... blue so i decided to use NFSMW's template instead. By doing so, i lost some gadget on the sidebars. I'll try to get on that later~ Malas ku dulu awal ani~~

I spent most of my day today watching this not so old Japanese drama called the "Iryu Medical Team Dragon". Its about this surgeon trying to assemble a team in order to perform a surgery called "Batista Technique". I watched it up till 6 episodes, they successfully performed the Batista Surgery eventhough they face countless complications whilst trying to save the patients life. But, they now face another yet a new rival in the medical industry. I can't wait to continue to the next episode but i really need to get back to my studies. I have been ignoring my studies for quite a while now. Brain dead jua ni krg aku ani ulihnya.

Oh! Avatar the last airbender rugged ah! book three.. fighting scenesnya makin rugged. Hahaha.. kes ketinggalan aku ah! I watched it online plang tu. I wanna list out all the anime that i wanna watch right now! (talk about being random!)

Anime List :

1. Bleach

2. Avatar (anime jua kn tu?)

3. FullMetal Alchemist : Brotherhood

4. Gurren Laggan

I think thats enough for this holiday :)

That's all for tonight.. I wanna EAT!

Numero Uno

This is a special post for group 1 members of the OGDC teambuilding activity.

First and foremost, Congratulations Team Uno for getting 1st place for the OGDC activity. As the team leader of this group, I am really proud of my team members for all their hardwork and commitment despite the criticism we receive from the teacher, me not being there for you guys halfway through the 1st day and the negativity within our group. But hey! we manage to go through it as a team! I don't know much about the 1st day, but our 2nd day was somewhat a bit messed up but we manage to pull it off. We made a bird nest which should be a container to carry the water, Hanafi wet himself, I looked like a killing machine whipping the table to get the key and all other wonderful and funny moments we had together. The 3rd day was the best! We WON the puzzle challenge, WON the Scavenger/Information Hunt and WON the water rocket challenge. We WON basically EVERYTHING on the 3rd day... well.... except for the blindfold bottle thing....... Haha! Nevertheless, we did our BEST! WE WON! Once again congratulations to each and every one of Uno. I will cherish all the wonderful moments we had during our OGDC activities. Thank you Uno. Thank you OGDC. Thank you everyone :)

My sixth sense

Feeling is your sixth sense. Called clairsentient (clear feeling), your inner voice is one that touches on your empathetic nature. What does this mean? Well, you're probably the most emotional of your friends and you are very in touch with the feelings of others. As a clairsentient, you often know something is wrong because you experience an uncomfortable feeling in your stomach (or the opposite for good things). It might be that your friend has had a bad day--but hasn't told anyone--and somehow you just know what's going on. Often this type of intuitive knowledge cannot be explained. We bet you've got a bunch of friends, and who wouldn't want a friend that just knows without being told...especially on those bad days.

I post this because this is the only clear explaination as to what I felt when I feel something weird or bad. I guess i focused too much other people's inner feelings rather then mine because i tend to cater my own feelings when I'm with my best friend.

On The Verge of Breaking

Been feeling quite unusual lately.. maybe thats why i left this blogsite hanging like an unwanted scarecrow.

Anyway, I am here to bitch about the daily basis of me not thinking deeply into why the heck am i doing this post! I know i'll regret it later.

A thought occured to me when i was sitting next to Hanafi during the Friday Prayer in a mosque next to MS (somewhat close to MS). I sat there thinking, why did things turned out to be this way!? By that i mean, why my life go the way as it is today/now and not the other way.

I thought about a lot of stuff.. me being friends with my friends, me being with my family, me being part of the community that i live in and me as Hafiz's best friend. I am happy as to the way things are right now but, i can't help thinking about what is going to happen next/tomorrow/next month/new year/the year after that? Life is filled with possibilities that it is endless! Having said that, the unwanted possibilities seems to be endless as well.

I'm the type of guy who actually keep things and people he loves and cares about close to him and fear of losing it. Or should i say that i am a materialistic type of person.

Losing things seems not an option for me. Losing someone is more or less losing a part of me.

"And even though you are next to me I still feel so alone"

That line from Yellowcard - Breathing is what i meant by losing someone. I know that some things are just too complicated for us to cope up with. But for me, an explanation is all that is enough for me and not arguements.

Hafiz, I was wrong about what i said earlier on.

I was being selfish. Fear of losing things to other things or someone to someone else made me this way. Its unreasonable yet it still happen to me. To anyone else. Without me actually realizing it, I hurt someone, other people, friends, family members and my best friend. An apology is insufficient to compensate all that.

If only i could live a carefree life. Set aside all the bad things/worries/pains and just live ur life to its fullest. All i want is for me to live a happy/healthy/wealthy life and of course the never ending prayers of wanting that someone to live a happy, healthy and wealthy life too. (You know who you are :) )

I am on the verge of breaking down. But that won't stop me from praying and hoping that one day, you'll be happy and for me to be happy too. My prayers of you is what comes first next to mine.

P.S : I know this post is dull, just bear with me.

1st Official Hafiz's Passenger

Hey~ Au bh Fiz~~~ ni post ah~ batah sudah ku nda blogging.. well.. bnyknya draft plang tu.

Anyway, last Thursday was one of the best afternoon i have ever had. Hafiz drive sendiri sudah! :)

He drove this white vios thingy and guess what i found dlm laci kritanya~~~ apa ah Fiz~~?? dah kau kluar kn masa bejalan hari atu kah!? messed up tu yo! hahaha :P

Anyway.. Hafiz lanja aku makan Sushi arah excapade di... uhhh.... umm...... yg ampir skulah..... d mana kn tu? Tutong kali.... yea... So here's the thing.... NYAMAN~~ sal kana lanja.. cana th jua~~ mun dh namanya bestfriend kn Fiz :D Thank you ah kau lanja~~ P ada "incident" bh masa kn balik atu.... p c Hafiz nda suruh mention sini.. so yea... haha!

P siuk lah.. and thanks again Fiz :D

Error

Okay.. something seriously went wrong with my template... i tried to revive all the things i lost den proceed on installing the new template.. n guess what! i lost all the things that i've lost once again!! haha :D anyway, will try again soon~

I'm not in the mood to post anything right now other then this. Goodnight~!!~!~!~!~!~!!~

MISSING!!

DUE TO SOME..... UNFORTUNATE EVENTS............... I LOST SOME THINGS FROM MY BLOG!! URGH!! WILL TRY TO SOLVE IT.. NANTI2 AFTER MY EXAMS! :)

Post Diary Gaytified!!

Thanks to a certain someone (c Khairini) no names mentioned... (haha) post diary ku Gay!! ada flowers, colourful... colours?? haha! mcm... gay lah jadinya post diary ku!!

Good Job on Gaytifying (whatever that is) my Post Diary :)

Its Official!

Its official that my Laptop's name is Kai Sing! Awwww~ :)

I swear on my......

Hey Guys! I got this from the Internet!! and guess what!

In ancient Rome, when a man testified in court he would swear on his testicles!!

WTS!! Hahaha! Kalau bini2 apa tu ah~ HAHAHAHAHAHA! WTS!!

Kai Sing :)

Heylo~

It seems like its been 5 days since I last updated my blog. Well~ by then.. a lot has happened and some i prefered it to be...... in the dark. (duh~ smua kali kn ku gitau??)

Anyway.. I had fun YESTERDAY!! The Nasyid people of MS ada this so called "Full Dress Rehearsel" with RTB and some of the MPs.. mostly PU1 MPs.. and surprisingly.. the HOB... (pemalas jua kamu nda kn masuk class ani!! haha).

Nothing much happened.. p... sorry Ayyub.. i didn't knw.. i'll make it up to you.. GOMENASAI~~

N guess what, c Hanafi cut himself (sal ia emo) masa backstage!! n den lap darahnya arah bajuku!!!! WTS!! haha! but then... aku jua yg bawa ia ke HEP, cuci lukanya den pasangkn bandage.. see~~ baik kn aku atu :) (ani.. aku d ucapnya emo.. siapa yg luka2 ani a!!)

Den, i told my backstage buddies yg aku kn ke "Jamban" p I ended up arah teachers cafeteria and hang out sama my Bestfriend~ n help out ngan bisnisnya.. and drank 3 cans of coke.. and lanja my backstage buddies jua :) 

My afternoon was.... a bit dull.. sal my supposedly Hantu meeting nda menjadi because of my laptop.. which reminds me.. i wanna name my laptop... so any suggestions anyone?? haha!

Sebelum ku balik ke Istanaku d Kpg Subok, someone/Nabil taught me this word "Kai Sing" which means Happy.. lurus ka?? haha! :) sure thing.. Kai Sing!! 

Den malamnya.. I think aku tetidur... n woke up quite late this morning and akhir dtg for my Biology extra class.. :( baik jua nada ke Pusat Ehsan, kalau nda ngaleh jua ku lagi tu :(

Thats it I guess...

Btw.. COMING SOON.... BORING!! Sorry Thai people.. p crita antu kamu nda lagi brijap.. go find a new hobby~ haha! jk jk

Special Olympics Walkathon!

Hey~ I know aku lambat sehari mempost but hey, its never too late!

Anyway, i joined this walkathon to raise fund for special olympics and managed to.... *beg* paksa c Nabil ikut :) hahaha! Thanks for coming! n sudah ku lanja tu aaaa..

I dont want to talk much about it sal....... i wanna keep this special thing all to myself~

Tapi~ malamnya lalah! haha!

H1N1 Epidemic!

I googled for pictures or posters on H1N1 or swine flu and I found THIS! I know this has nothing to do with H1N1 but hey~ look at it this way~ nda jua brijap ulihnya penyakit atu. Haha!

Though.. I recommend you guys out there to be careful. Cuci tia apa yg sepatutnya di cuci. Basuh tia apa yg kamu nda pernah basuh! Aiyt!! STAY SAFE EVERYONE!

Reborn

Hyea!

I've been hearing about this ALARMING news about "Swine Flu" or "H1N1"! Mudahan Brunei yg damit lagi aman tenteram ani di jauhkn dari penyakit cemani ani. Hijab ku nyamo! Tesumbat bh tu hidung!!

Anyway~ enough of this Flu Flu thing. Bersih2kn diri saja sebelum dan selapas makan n jamban and mandi 6 kali sehari. Korek tia biji mata atu.

P.E was FUNTASTIC! Awesome drills and Gaijin team members, We were AWESOME!! Congratz to everyone for a job well done especially Sabs, Fiqs, Don. Quite a remarkable improvement! I'll work hard too for Gaijin. 1,2,3 Gaijin! *HOWL*

The classes after P.E was....... as usual... perhaps... unusually BORING! Mana saya tau~ lalah kali a lapas P.E ani~

The Afternoon part lah yg siuk. The "Parents Teacher Meet" part nda plang siuk tu.. p Hanging mcm hangman sama friends siuk a! Like Bwabishly!

Lastly, (formal jua bunyinya) I've added todays Pictures in my Facebook.. Help me tag and enjoy browsing. Bnyknya poklen tu dlm gmbr a!

New LINK for EVERYONE!

Hey guys!! For those of you yg karak Asian ghost movies like myself, then asian-horror-movies.com is the place for YOU! You can watch it online!!! so HAVE FUN!!!! :) I added the link on arah my sidebar for u guys~

Broken Link

Aiya! ada problem lah ngan my new playlist ani~~ nda apalah.. i'll try to fix it mcm surgery nanti.. kalau aku free..awal ani aku malas~

Kalau aku usai my Playlist nanti, it'll be like a drama suspense medical show from a certain classic movie that goes like this:
Nurse : Doc! We have a problem!! de playlist is not singing!
Doc : OMG! *frowns like a goblin* Quick Nurse! Lets shuffle!
Doc and Nurse shuffle nda branti mcm poklen.
Doc :Daym! u're getting good at this!
Nurse : Worry about me later Doc! Save this playlist before its tooooo late!
Doc : Right! To the ICyou!*Doc runs off while the nurse masih lagi shuffle arah emergency room*
Once smpai arah ICyou.
Doc : Ihhhh.. malas ku eh! krg th surgery ni playlist aa... *leaves de ICyou room and sambung shuffle sama Nurse.
The End!

Cast:
Doc played by Me
Nurse played by Ummi (Haha!)

The Missing Protagonist

Hey EVERYONE!! I know u miss me~ I know that you were wondering about my whereabouts like this:-
"Mana tia c Paruk ani?? OMG!! Is he okayzzzzz?"
"OMG!! Mana tia kekasih ati ku ani~~~ PARUK!!!!!!"
"Oh di manakh kekanda ku~ semoga kekanda jauh dari segala bala bencana.."

Don't worry lah guys~ I'm fine~ still in one piece~

Btw, last Sunday was my BEACH BDAY PARTY!!! not everyone is invited... sal....... umm ummm.. krisis ekonomi masa ani.. harga minyak naik bh... from 13sen satu litar, ke $12 satu litar!! nda mahal mana tu nyamooo!! n thats just diesel~ balum lagi apa2!! (haha!) Nada bh~ I don't have any particular reason not to invite some.... most..... haha~ I had a lot of fun with my Friends!! especially my BESTFRIEND!! I'm glad ia had fun~ :) Thanks for coming everyone!! Kamsahamnida!! Arigatio Gozaimas!! Simula ngitngit!! (whatever that is)

Kalau kn liat gmbr2 beach party atu, just go and see arah Facebook.. malas ku kn meyimpan sini~ bnyk kraja~ Haha! btw.. aku kn update tu my playlist... so~ guys.. kalau ada request ka apaka.. kn makan ka... just let me knw.. aku lanja... haha!

Missing Posts

I deleted some posts sal i changed my template to a less stretched ugly looking template.

I'll add some "interesting features" to my blog in the near future... malas ku dulu awal2 :)

Anyway, enjoy the songs in my playlist :)

Change

Things keep changing day by day (*haru haru*)haha.. apakanZZZZ!~

Anyway.. u changed a lot lately... you're becoming more and more cold towards me.. somehow, i find it hard to look at you in the eye because all i can see is someone else.. not the person yg aku pernah tau n used to spend time with..

I dont know if its u or me yg realize this whole "thing" but, it hurts...

I cant really focus on all the things I do.. even the simplest thing seems so difficult.. all those sleepless nights... i would do anything to change it all.. to have you back the way you used to be..

I wonder if this is too much to ask.. because, this is all i'm asking for... for me and you.

Love Hate Relationship

I'm currently having this love hate relationship with my blog...... aku banci templateku~~~ :( sadih ku eh.

The day before tomorrow

I wasnt actually in good terms with the day today. Everything seems so fucked up! But, i'm not gonna let get that into me now, would i?

Anyway, the school held this Speech Competition and Wee Kiat won 1st place for the PU1 and PU2 category. CONGRATS WEE KIAT!!

But, something happened backstage...... something................... something................. way more freaky than a simple ghost story.... Its a mystery that needs solving... A mystery indeed~

CCA was fun, we learn to count in Sino-Korean and Pure Korean.. we were like little kids~ hana~ deul~ set~ net~ HAHA! 

Ummi bawa main Netball tadi! It was FUN! But... aku terpaksa leave early due to some........ unavoidable circumstances...... sigh~ luckily my bestfriend was there. Kalau inda, mampus dia! wahaha!!

Then we had our utmost intense Field Peformance practise. One wrong move and we're all dead! Its like performing a "Forbidden Move!!" But, it was fun! until Hafyz Jelly tinggalkn aku.... or aku tinggalkn ia.... haha! 

We had fun in the counceling room after my practise...

Aku mau lawan speed lagi eh sama c Ummi! Rematch!! kau nda handal! hahaha! balum ku memakai technique handalan ku~ nanti kau~~

Y?

I'm not quite sure about today.. I think I was okay.. I think... Hmm..

Anyway, I watched this CREEPY Japanese horror movie "Apartment 1303". My eyes literally poped out masa that ghost appeared blakang de Detective. Volume lagi FULL tu!! Kan tuli gnya inda! 

Practice hari ani was.... okay.. I dont know... Maybe its because the seniors are stressed out about our not so perfect dance.. Don't worry too much about us Guys!! We can do it!! Hwaiting!!

I just hope a certain someone... malam ani........ sigh...

Just don't think to much about it.. k..... lets go through this.. together~

Btw, I'm addicted to Sorry sorry by Super Junior :) Its their 3rd album.. Their dance move for this song was superb!! tried imitating it :)

Anyway, wish me luck for my English Oral O'lvl exam tomorrow~~ Hwaiting!!

Nda Betantu~

Balik2 dh ku menukar blog ku ani... n mcm nada progress langsung~ Brapa lama dh ku tinggal kn ni a~ 

Anyway, i'm still looking for a template yg really suits me.. yg ani pun.... mcm..... bida bh.. nda ummm.. haha!

I'll add more things lah sini nanti2~~ :)